I Bottomed Out!!

It will be 3 years Friday that Fletcher was attached at the prison by the inmates. I really did quite well for the first 2 1/2 years I thought. I managed to keep it in the middle of the road. But, I really was only going thru the motions. I hadn't dealth with some issues that I had I was to busy taking care of him and trying to hold everything together at home. Due to the stress and not taking care of myself I got sick. The first trial was a miss trial...... So the next one starts next Monday. I have been asked to testify...... So I think doing that I will have to face those emotions I really haven't dealth with... So hopefully that will help getting that frustration up and out...... Seeing the Men that attached Fletcher should help also. Hopefully seeing Justice Done Will Help..... Having Babies to help has saved My Life.... Helping Something that is More Helpless then I am..... Thank You All For Your Support .......Sheepie Hugs, Kaye
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We LOVE YOU KAYE! :hearts: We are here for you when ever you need us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Kaye,
Bless your heart. You have been through so much. I can only imange all you are dealing with.
I hope all goes well with the trial. I'm sure facing the man the attacked Fletcher is going to be very emotional for you. You have great inner strenth. I know you will get through it.
We are here for you and I am keeping you, Fletcher and all your furbabies in my prayers.:hearts: :hearts:
Please do take a little time here and there just for yourself. You deserve it.
Oh, Kaye. I'm so sorry that you've had to go through all of this. I literally cannot imagine what you are going through, so I won't even try to give advice or thoughts. Just know that I'm thinking of you and Fletcher and all the animals and hope that it all goes well. Please try to take care of yourself.
Kaye,

You have more inner strength than anyone I have talked to in such a long time. I so admire you. I can't imagine what you are going through but please know that all of us here support you 100%. All of our prayers are with you.

If there is anything I can possibly do to help even a small amount, please let me know. Texas isn't that far from Louisiana.
(((HUGE HUGS)))
Shug wrote:
.....Having Babies to help has saved My Life.... Helping Something that is More Helpless then I am..... Thank You All For Your Support .......Sheepie Hugs, Kaye


Kaye, I'm sorry you're so down. Eventually we all come to a point where we have to deal with lifes most unpleasant circumstances. That forces us to face the issue(s), to "feel" the pain and fear associated with it.

We bury ourselves as deep as we can in something else in order not to face the fear and pain, without even knowing it. Others can see a change in us at that time, but we're in our hiding place. A place we don't recongize, a state of denial.

But, when the breaking point comes, as your's has, we usually find that it would've been much easier to have faced it head on. A lesson learned the hard way for some, including myself. But, its hard to realize that when you don't see yourself running.

We can only handle so much at a time. I think that's when we find something to hide behind. As the situation gets worse, we dig in deeper. Eventually the problems start falling into our place of safety. As it does, we're forced out of the hole we dug by the very same things that put us there. One by one, tear by tear, fear by fear, we overcome.

Once we overcome the pain and fear, we usually find it wasn't as bad as we thought it was going to be. We made it harder on ourselves, thus the illness and mental anguish. :roll:

As you said, you're dogs have kept you going. They were each in a hole when you got them, just like you were. As you would reach out to pull them up from within the holes they were stuck in, they in turn were pulling you up out of the one you were standing in.

There are many lessons to be learned from rescue. You have a lot of knowledge and inner strength. Think of "your" rescue in that same light. You've resurfaced. You're safe, strong, and you will overcome!!!

God bless you, yours and all the doggies in your life!!! Pam
I know you have the strength to go through with this - and I hope justice is served - thinking of you all :hearts:
((((Hugs Kaye))))) Am thinking of you and know you have the strength for all ahead. It puts closure on things for you, even though it is hard to face, sometimes things like that are needed to get on with life and find a resolution for all things.

Love to you and Fletcher and all the fur Kids, you are in my thoughts and know you have the most amazing strength for all that is ahead, will have you all in my prayers :hearts:
Kaye, facing the emotions is the first step in the healing process. It may take time but keep the thought that you are getting better. I'll pray for strength for both you and Fletcher. Hugs to you, Fletcher and the babies.
Kaye consider consulting a professional mental health person for yourself. You'll be down in the muck again dealing with these emotions. Having someone to guide you may be helpful so you don't get stuck down there.

Your frenzied life may be your attempt not to deal with these issues.....avoidance is something I'm real good at myself.

You have to care for yourself first, then Fletcher and the pups.

Love,
susan
Kaye, I hope things turnaround for you soon. Keep strong & we're thinking about you!
Thank You All So Much. This has been a roller coaster of emotions. People say "Oh You Are So Strong" I think it is pure Stubborness not Strenght..... You can't help someone if you are in the hole with them. I just lost sight of myself..... This has been a real learning experience. Addressing Fear Head On Will Help... The trial is the first step in recovery of healing...... Again I Thank All Of You For Your Support and Love. Sheepie Hugs, Kaye
VerveUp, LOVE YOUR NEW AVATAR :lol:
We're thinking of you, Kaye. Hugs and kisses from us.
I just have to careful about what I say about the trial. Be careful to not use certain nouns. This was a ordered gang hit and they are out there. So the state attorney have asked that I not make certain statements that can be picked up on the internet. I didn't realize that could happen. So this is scarey for several reasons. I will be so glad to get past this bolder in the Road Of Life..... Sheepie Hugs, Kaye
Kaye, My best wishes and thoughts are with you during this time. Like everyone said, we are here for you, anytime you need us.
Kaye, your sheepie family is behind you 1000%. My thoughts and prayers are with you as you face this difficult time.
We are here for you if you need anything... and you are all in our prayers.

Just remember, you are only one person, and it is OK to ask for help.

Take care of you- make sure you eat right !!!
Shug wrote:
I just have to careful about what I say about the trial. Be careful to not use certain nouns. This was a ordered gang hit and they are out there. So the state attorney have asked that I not make certain statements that can be picked up on the internet. I didn't realize that could happen. So this is scarey for several reasons. I will be so glad to get past this bolder in the Road Of Life..... Sheepie Hugs, Kaye


Kaye, having been through the "watch what you say" court crap, I understand fully your fears and concerns. To make life easier on you just remember this:
NEVER SAY ANYTHING ANY DIFFERENT, THAN HOW YOU WOULD SAY IT IN COURT. Your answers and comments have to be consistant.

Attorneys like to trip you up. They try to confuse you in order to get you to state things differently than how you meant it. LISTEN, then THINK about what they ask, if theres ANY doubt as to understanding the question, ASK THEM to explain exactly what it is that they're asking. If they don't give you a satisfactory answer, DON'T be afraid to tell the judge you don't understand. If all else fails, use a twofold answer such as: Well, I'm not sure what you're asking, but if its this.........then my answer is......../ but, if you're asking this.......then my answer is......

The one thing people forget while on a witness stand is that "they" are the one in control, NOT the attorney. You have the right to understand the questions, the right to think through your answer and then give it.

Make sure you listen to the question and ONLY answer what they asked. Giving no further information. MAKE them ASK for the answers they want. Staying calm, listening, thinking and then answering is the key.

When its time to go into the details you want to go into, your attorney will ask those questions. Discuss this with him/her, about what to and not to say. They will lead you, as I'm sure you already know.

Kaye, you're still in control. Don't feel as though you have to walk on glass. You've come along way, and are on the right path. Don't let fear get in the way and cause you to stumble. You've risen up, and are about to conquer the enemy. Let God go before you, and knock your enemies down. Reap the rewards. God bless!!! Pam
:hearts: Willoughby and I send you, Fletcher and the babies hugs and kisses. Your courage will see you through. Stay in touch with all of us!
Good luck and hope you get some peace in the end. Thinking of you as you and Fletcher face the trial.

:hearts:
Kaye, between what happened to Fletcher and all the rescue you do you've surely seen the worst life has to offer. Be strong, but also take care of yourself. Good things will start happening for you, in the meantime you have a big family here if you should need anything.

((((HUGS))))
Kaye,
If you are feeling like you are in a hole, just imagine your forum family is shoveling dirt in there to fill it up, so you can easily step right out!

Maybe this will bring everything up, you'll deal with it, and then be able to move forward with closure and peace. Also it's OK to be good to yourself, whatever that would be for you.


My thoughts are with you and yours.
Las Vegas Sheepie Lover wrote:
Kaye,
If you are feeling like you are in a hole, just imagine your forum family is shoveling dirt in there to fill it up, so you can easily step right out!




HEHEHEHEHE, I got my shovel ready for ya!!!
Dear Kaye

Pip says he is good at digging and will send you some of his dirt. My prayers are with you and fletcher for a fair and just trial, and finally, most importantly for healing for both of you.
Jury selection starts in the morning at 9:00. I will not testify. I really don't know anything anyway about the attack. I couldn't testify and be in the court room anyway. The state attorney thinks it will do more good to be in the front row in the court room everyday so the jury can see me. I will make a statement before sentencing......I really dread this. I will see the video of the attack for the first time. A guard videoed everthing from putting Fletcher on the stretcher to putting him the ambulance. This is the first trial. I don't know when the second inmate will go to trial. I will feel so much better getting past this. Again I really appreciate all your support and love. Sheepie Hugs, Kaye
Kaye-
Good luck tomorrow- be strong and remember all of us behind you and Fletcher 100%. We will pray for justice and healing for you. This will not resolve all of your emotions and anger, but it will take you a step closer.
Take care of you.
A.
((((HUGS))))
I hope you have support there! A family from church just went thru a third trial for the killer of their son. Three people will be spending the rest of their lives in jail. Anyway, the family was so emtionally spent each day, they couldn't face cooking. ASK for help. That's what this family did. People want to help, they just don't know how.

I wish I could throw my arms around you and help you thru this.

susan
Kaye,
I told you stress would make you sick. :(
Please take care of yourself!!!
I hope the trail ends in justice served!!! :plead:
(((((Hugs)))))
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