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I love coffee but I drink too much. If I had to, I could probably survive on bagels alone. I live with my parents until I find a job. My dad had a mid-life crisis and bought an expensive car; my mom had a mid-life crisis and bought an expensive dog (the Goldendoodle). This girl sent me a nasty email this morning because her boyfriend was a friend of mine when he lived in Wichita, and now that he's home, she takes my calling him as a threat. There were lots of curses. Pretty nasty. My favorite color combination is light blue and yellow. I wear contacts and I hate it. I'm always putting in eye drops. I've been wearing them for the past 8 years. I had braces when I was younger but I never wore my retainer. My bottom teeth are crooked. I can listen to any kind of music. But I don't like rap and country ballads. And Celine Dion. I'm obsessed with celebrity gossip. I have a subscription to US Weekly. I love laying out by the pool, and I love watching my dogs swim. But I don't like swimming with my dogs because they scratch me. I have a beef with the clothing designer Roberto Cavali because a couple years ago he had a series of ads with sickly thin models. They were wearing corsets, but they were just so terribly thin looking. My flip-flops constantly have chew marks on them. I love vintage clothes, but I don't love the pricetags. Maggie's having a doggie dream and she's crying right now. My brother is brilliant. He has one more semester at Duke University and then he graduates. He spent a semester studying at King's College in London. As tough as he tries to appear, he got really homesick. My sister dated a guy for 4 years and then got married. It was an amazing wedding in October of 2003, and they separated in late summer 2004. They're divorced now, and I feel sorry for both of them. My dad is John, my mom is Joanie, my sister is Jennifer, I'm Julie, and my brother is David. My mom's best friend is Judy. Lots of J's. My dogs are Oliver, Maggie, Marty, Molly. Ollie, Molly, Maggie, Marty. It gets confusing. My favorite wine is Chardonney (is that the right spelling?) When you get off the phone with my sister she says, "Mmmbye" I smoke cigarettes, and people always say, "You know, those are bad for you" as if I had no idea. I don't want to be rude, but I always want to respond, "Are you serious? I never knew that!" Come on! I know they're bad, and I know I shouldn't do it. It's like the show "7th Heaven", I know it's bad and I'm addicted, but I can't help it! I love my family. Even though I don't like them sometimes, I think family is very important. I really need to clean my room. I moved in last month, and I've been sleeping in the guest room because all my stuff is in my bedroom! I like this website, and I'm totally addicted, but there's something impersonal about the internet. I have no idea what I want to do in life. I feel like I'm in a river and I'll just end up somewhere. I have tattoos, but they're not tacky. And they're both in different languages. I have a relative who perished in the Holocost. They found his diary and it's a book now. "Scrolls of Agony," by Chaim A. Kaplan. It's really boring, though. My uncle is friends with Mel Brooks. I want to meet him. "The Producers" wasn't a very good show, though. But then again, Matthew Broderick wasn't in it that night. I have a crush on Matthew Broderick, especially in the movie "War Games." The funny thing about avatars is that we know people as their dogs. These pictures take on our personalities. I want to live in Colorado someday and be totally in touch with nature. That's weird because I don't know if I could survive without a sink. I have very few real friends, but they're good ones. I love being outside sometimes. And then I love being inside. I have a fondness for rice pudding. My foot looks like a dead person's foot. It's ugly. I love stilletos, but I don't like wearing them. I prefer to admire. I think I'm more articulate in words. I speak like a dummy in a conversation. I hate automated phone menus because I quit listening to the options and then I get transfered to the wrong place. I'm easily fooled by telemarketers. I had to shut down my bank account a couple weeks ago because I accidentally gave out my information to the wrong people. I'm a sucker for what sounds like a bargain. My parents are the same way. Except with infomercials. Our kitchen is like a shrine to Ron Papil (I don't know how to spell). Our basement is a shrine to Nintendo. I don't play them, but I have just about every system. I'm weird like that. I curse a lot, but never in an arguement. I also say "I feel like you're being a jerk" rather than "You're a jerk" because it sounds like I'm accusing them. Maybe it's because my mom's a therapist. My favorite pair of jeans are the ones with the huge rip across the butt. I can't wear them in public, but I love em. |
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I love the smell of puppies. It's like the new car smell for dogs. My friend just got a puppy and he smells like puppy and macaroni. I think I talk about dogs too much. If I have a problem with authoratative figures, I try to keep it to myself. Like with cops. In general, I don't eat anything I can't spell. My favorite author is Hubert Selby Jr. A lot of people don't like his style but I think it's brilliant. He really conveys emotion and because he doesn't use quotations, you get to know each character and you can just tell who's talking based on their language. The only problem is that he writes tragedies, so it's hard to read unless you're in the mood. My favorite artist is Marcel Duchamp. I think he has a good sense of humor. He's probably most famous for drawing the goatee on the Mona Lisa. Sometimes the most famous works of art are because of the context, not the skill. Not that Duchamp has no skill, but he had a good sense of humor during an intense era (in the art world). I love not working, but I don't love being broke. I wish I could post in this forum for a salary. I'm reading "How Dogs Think" by Dr. Stanley Coren. I need another fiction book to read, though. I just finished "Ham on Rye" by Charles Bukowski. I get lonely, but I don't like big social situations. I don't really like my nose. It doesn't accessorize my face well. But it's not terrible. One day I will have a chauffer. Don't ask me how, but I will. I don't think I'll ever get married. I get bored too easily. I believe in long hair. Not too long, but I refuse to go shorter than my shoulders. I don't have a religion. I have a set of values and beliefs, and they develop as I get older. A religion is too much of a committment, and I don't like committments. Plus, what if Germany won WWII? Maybe then Hitler would be the new Jesus. History is victory. It's hard to find an apartment that will allow Maggie. It's hard to find a house that will allow Maggie. One day I drove by a pregnant woman taking a walk. She had a double stroller with one baby, maybe just in case she gave birth on her walk. I thought it was funny. Another time I saw a woman taking her babies for a walk, and I caught myself looking to make sure she didn't lose one without noticing. I have a fondness for dairy products but I'm afraid of mold. Three years ago I met Sebastian Bach from the hairband Skid Row. One time I spent $600 on a shopping spree. I still have the stuff, but I would rather have $600. I still can't believe the email I got this morning. It was totally rude. I wrote her back, but I managed not to use any explitives. She actually threatened to personally beat me up. I could take her. I'm little but I'm scrappy. No I'm just kidding. No violence. I like summer because I get to drive by tan boys working outside without shirts. I drink an extraordinary amount of water. I dye my hair. I'm on a diet, but I cheat a lot. Well, not really a diet, but I'm trying to avoid unhealthy foods and eat more veggies. I'm so sick of tomatoes. But I like avacados. My dad has a Mickie Mantle rookie card. I tell really bad jokes. For instance: The other day, this guy runs up to me on the street saying, "I'm a teepee, I'm a wigwam, I'm a teepee, I'm a wigwam," and I said, "Relax, man, you're two tense." It doesn't work as well when you type it. I'm easily entertained. Except for TV. I get excited about macaroni. I try to get away with jumping in the pool instead of a shower. What? My hair's wet! I want a boyfriend, but if worse comes to worse I might have to date our dog. Unless I meet a really great Lab or something. I'm just kidding. I'm kidding now, but we'll see how the summer goes 
I'm sure no one's reading this anymore. It's probably boring. But I feel like talking about myself. Internet is so impersonal. And I'm afraid to ask any questions that might be considered too personal. Like "do you have a boyfriend?" because I don't want anyone to think I'm coming to their house and kidnap them. You guys are merely afflicted with my personality, and that's not so bad, is it? |
| Hi Julie. Thank you for sharing. Many of your random thoughts made me laugh. I'm another smoker and when people say "those things are bad for you" I reply "Really? Maybe there should be warnings on the packs." That usually shuts them up. I hang around several forums and this is one of the most friendly ones. I think people don't chat about themsevles because this forum is supposed to be about sheepdogs (although I only have a horse, not a sheepie. Yet.) Plus people tend to think "nobody would be interested in what I have to say or think."
My mother makes the world's best rice pudding. Paula O. Dogs rule. |
| Hi ShaggyMarie,
I loved your post! Ahhhh I feel like I know you now and lots of things you said, I can relate to and it made me smile. Perhaps others will follow suit and post things about themselves and give us a chance to find out more about them. Marianne |
| Julie. I too smoke and I hate it when people say to me "You would be beautiful, if you didn't smoke" I dont recall asking anyone what they thought of my looks...besides, Im married now and when he quits, Ill quit!!
Random Darcy stuff: Im an identical twin, I hate when people ask what its like being a twin..I dont know, whats it like not being a twin!!! I am ocd...I clean too much, I iron my sheets and I like it when my wood floors to sqweek after I wash them. I am a kitchen designer, with the crappiest kitchen in my neighborhood... I love my husband, but Im glad hes a fireman...I get the whole house to myself for 24 hours at a time.... I love to cook, but I burn bread every time! |
to continue....I feel bad, I almost drown my dog yesterday...I went over to a friends house to swim, and I wanted her to go in the water with me. I pushed her into the deep end and she sank like a rock   I jumped in after her, helped her out, now im all bruised and clawed up and shes acting weird today...bad mommy moment...to say the least, I will never force her to go in the water again...its good we dont have a pool!!
Im addicted to this site, and I cant seem to get work done in a timely fashion any more... BLA, BLA, BLA!!!!! |
| Maggie, forget Colorado for getting in touch with your inner self. It has been over run by people with same belief. I lived there for 30 years and cry when I go back. While beautiful, there are an awful lot of people. My little town was 200 when I left, it is now over 50,000 swelling to 100,000 on weekends, Holidays, etc. And like dumb nuts, we didn't have two pennies to rub together or else we would have bought real estate and now been well off.
My husband and I joke, we want to move where people are scarce. The only state that is loosing population is North Dakota........but who could stand the weather there?? |
shaggymaggie wrote: I don't have a religion. I have a set of values and beliefs, and they develop as I get older. A religion is too much of a committment, and I don't like committments. Plus, what if Germany won WWII? Maybe then Hitler would be the new Jesus. History is victory. Everything valuable in life requires committment. We don't want just "a religion", and religion isn't the committment. The committment is to the Lord Jesus Christ. Man is the one that has divided it into "religions". We have to read the Bible ourselves to learn God's word, not rely on others. I can only say that my belief is that you must believe in Jesus and ask forgiveness for your sins to enter the Kingdom of Heaven. He is just to forgive, and will do so, but you have to ask. We have a set of values and beliefs that developed as we aged, but as a child, who instilled those values and beliefs in us? Are they now our's, or the continuence of something we've been taught and just think is so? If Germany had won the war and if Hitler would've become the so called new Jesus, as you said, we wouldn't have the freedom of speech to say these things. And, someone capable of killing so many innocent people would surely have condemned us all to Hell on the spot. How can one even begin to compare Hitler's story of hatred for mankind, to that of Jesus and His love of mankind? The diary of your relative that was lost in the Holocost, how can that be boring? That was a life, condemned to death just for being a Jew, just for breathing, by a man full of hate. Maybe if you re-read the book, and put yourself in his place, his diary won't be so boring. History is victory: The word of God was the begining of history, and the final victory, is His. Just my personal beliefs and feelings. I love the Lord and you gave me an opportunity to speak of His offer of salvation. No offense meant! |
| I'm glad to hear people open up on this site. Thanks, Darcy.
I have OCPD traits, but I don't clean. That would be a good symptom for me. I'm obsessive about social stuff, like how people perceive me. I also shake a lot. And I'm really self-conscious about it. It's probably associated with the social anxiety and coffee, but I have it when I'm alone, too. So if you need someone to thread a needle, I'm the wrong person. It would probably end up in my eye or something. I have really high-standards. That's probably why I don't have a lot of friends. I'm really vain with myself, but everyone else's appearance doesn't bother me. I won't leave the house without makeup and I have to have the PERFECT pair of jeans. After that, anything's possible. I have my nose pierced, but most people don't notice because it's so small. Maybe I should run a chain from my nose to my ear. Just kidding.
Piercings and tattoos should be tasteful. I love hearing about you guys. |
| In regards to your comment about being on a diet, and wanting to eat more veggies, and loving avacados....
Avacados are the most fattening fruit there is. Avocados: fat: 1.0 cup, cubes has 21.99g of fat 1.0 avocado, NS as to Florida or California has 29.47g of fat 1.0 cup, sliced has 21.40g of fat 1.0 cup, pureed has 33.72g of fat Who would think a fruit would be fattening? |
| I'm sorry, I hope you didn't think I was comparing the two in that way. I just meant they were powerful figures.
I was actually raised Jewish. Well, I went to Sunday school and Hebrew school. When I was old enough, I didn't exactly reject it, I just didn't pursue. So my set of values has basically come from my parents. I said that my relative's diary was boring and I'm sticking to my guns. You try reading it. It's like a thousand pages of him basically writing about life in general, with no specifics about the politics and government. And it ends before he was sent to a ghetto. Unfortunately, the groups of people being discriminated did not realize what was going on. They were, like the masses, brainwashed to think they were bad. In a way they were helpless because they didn't know their fate. So my uncle's life isn't boring, just his diary. This is completely off topic, but I always wonder, do bars have to stop serving at midnight on Saturday? Because technically it's Sunday. That's something I wonder about. Have you ever seen a 13-year old with a mustache? It's really weird. I love when people say you can't trust a man with a mustache. They say he's got something to hide. That cracks me up. |
| If you want to be alone, there are lots of places where there aren't many people.
Northern British Columbia, Yukon Territory, Northwest Territory, Alaska. Joan and I liked Haines, Alaska alot. But the occasional 10-feet-of-snow snowstorm and proximity (or, more precisely the lack thereof) to medical care nixed the notion. Sigh. |
| My sisters first boyfriend had a mustache...ha ha ..that brought back a memory...she thought he was very mature looking...I thought he looked like a weasel......I dislike tatoo's because Im afraid of what Ill look like when Im 60 with a tatoo...and besides, the only two things Id want forever on my body is my monogram or the Ralph Lauren polo guy....
Tatoo's dont look too good on preppies  |
| I made sure to get my tattoos where they can be hidden, like the back of my neck |
| I always have dreams where my teeth fall out.
I'm hungry. How come you can't get rid of an ex-boyfriend until you want him back? How come we change when we move, but go back to our routines when we go back home? My back hurts. Probably because I've been sitting at my computer all day. You guys are getting my medical bills! How come I can't blow smoke rings? How come people tell me cigarettes make girls ugly? Ugly girls are ugly because their ugly. Have you ever been to an open-casket funeral? I went once and the guy was cute. Am I allowed to think that? Once I was driving behind a blue VW Beatle with a liscense plate that said "4evrsngl" Forever single. I pulled up next to the car at a light. It was a guy driving a Beatle. I looked back over and he was staring at a booger on his finger. And he wonders why he's forever single! At least if you're gonna pick your nose try to be discreet. At least he didn't eat it. That's gross. I like songs with good lyrics. My favorite is "Starry Night" the one about Vincent Van Gogh. I also like John Denver. He kind of looks like a muppet, but that's part of his appeal. It's awkward when you see people every day and don't ask them their name for like 2 months. I feel guilty. Pizza Hut has good advertising. I can be eating a pizza and I'll want to order another one if the commercial comes on. The number's on my speed dial. Damn this diet. I'm ordering a pizza. Maybe not. Well, actually I probably will. I really like when I can insult someone without them knowing it. I also like when I'm right and they know it. Sometimes I'm afraid I'll end up as an old single lady with lots of cats. But instead of cat, dogs. My Saturday night will be having a Hungry Hungry Hippo competition with myself. I go to Accupuncture. I don't know if it works, but at least I get a scheduled nap. Do you ever wonder if you were adopted? I don't. When I was little, my brother and sister convinced me my real name is Jubacca. Why don't men wear hats anymore? And spats! I wanna see some spats! Why haven't I taken a shower yet? Oh wait, we don't ask ourselves why we haven't done something on this forum. I'm still thinking about that pizza. |
| Julie, you need to relax....do all of the questions go through your mind all day?! You are soo funny...I too have dreams where my teeth fall out, elevators falling, tornadoes, and getting fat....atkins really works....I cant seem to log on at home so its going to show up as guest...its me...Panda and I are going to meet Bailey and Sue at the dog park tonite, I cant wait!!! see all of you tommorrow...
Darcy |
| I just wanted to tell you guys I got my pizza and I ate it too. I ate as much as I could really fast, because the faster I eat the less it counts. And ice cream out of the carton doesn't hurt. And anything you eat while you're standing.
Even the grass looks greener! |
| Ron,
I don't do snow anymore.....or at least very little. When I hung up the skiis, my love affair with the white stuff became purely visual.....I want to see it, not be in it. So, I guess it's Alaska in the summer and someplace mild in the winter. Problem. I'm #1 mosquito bait. I put in an order with Avon today because I'm already covered in bites. I know DEET is better, but you've got to wash that stuff off and I'm under attack 24/7, even in the house. Don't know why my neighbor got West Nile and not me. As for religion, don't block it out completely. I was 55 before I went back....after what, a 45 year break? Amazing how life changes every few years. You think you know who you are, what you are and where you are going, nor not going and WHAM! you find yourself on a new track. Actually it's a fun ride if you leave all options open and take life as an adventure. |
| I like to read in bed. Yesterday, I didn't get up until 1 pm.
I meet with my girlfriends every Saturday for lunch and we talk and laugh forever. I don't like to talk on the phone unless I have something to say (or the other person does). My cat sleeps on my head every night. My dog won't even sleep in the bedroom! When I think of things that happened in the past, it seems like that was another person. I am close to my brothers and an aunt who is just 8 years older than me. The kids at school who are the naughtiest are almost always my favorite. I don't have much patience and when it's gone, IT"S GONE! I think arrogant people are a waste of time. I have dreams almost every night. I love chocolate and could eat it 24/7. I hate housework and have a service do it for me but sometimes feel guilty about it. Money has never been a criteria for my happiness, even when I have enough of it which happens occasionally. I found out that when your parents die, you feel like an orphan no matter how old you are. I have many happy childhood memories. My husband is not so lucky. I've learned that love can be a double edged sword. The more you love someone, the more you hurt when they die. I keep a pair of reading glasses in the bathroom (aka the "library")! I love to laugh and do it often. I used to have dozens of pairs of shoes. Now I wear only 3-4 pair. I usually belive people are telling me the truth and can't believe it when I find out otherwise. I'm learning that as time goes by, gravity is not my friend (you women will understand that one). I like to walk through country cemeteries and read the inscriptions on the old tombstones. I like to cook big meals and invite family and friends over and watch them enjoy the food. I love Mexican food and Chinese food. I can see the man in the moon. That's it for now! |
Darcy wrote: Julie. I too smoke and I hate it when people say to me "You would be beautiful, if you didn't smoke" I dont recall asking anyone what they thought of my looks...besides, Im married now and when he quits, Ill quit!! All right, I'll jump on the smoking rant: Sure, as if smoking actually changes the structure of your face to look like Rosie O'Donnell or something. OMG, I hated when people said that. I quit but only because I had pneumonia (and yes, I know I've said this many times) but I still advocate smoking and have decided that I'm now at a point where I can be a social smoker again. Since I am not particularly social, I shouldn't be smoking much. It kills James because he smoked for many years, quit, but CANNOT smoke at all or he'll start again. He hates that I can. You know what I hate? People who point out that you're smoking, period. Shut up, I know. I would also like people to stop lying about their "allergy" to smoke. Ever heard Denis Leary's "No Cure for Cancer" bit? His reply to "those things are bad for you" is Oh my God, I didn't know, I thought they had vitamin C in them and stuff. It's much funnier coming from him but somehow really unbelieveable since he quit and that's what all his comedy was about was smoking. Sell out. Darcy wrote: Im an identical twin, I hate when people ask what its like being a twin..I dont know, whats it like not being a twin!!!
Wow, Darcy, you're a twin? What's that like?  |
| One time I sat by this cute guy in Accounting. After class we went outside and I lit up. He actually walked away from me because he didn't like it. I was like "I'm outside!"
When I lived in the dorms they put me on the smoking floor. I didn't ask for it, but I didn't mind because I smoke while I'm doing homework anyway. The problem was that half the floor was smoking and the other half were athletes and people with asthma. I mean, COME ON, did we seriously think this one out? Athletes? Yeah, that one didn't fly. A lot of people changed floors. And our floor wasn't very social because we had to keep our doors closed, and no one wanted to even come down our hall. But I got the last laugh because come winter all the smokers on other floors had to go outside and freeze. And I've known people who smoked pot but gave me crap for smoking cigarettes. Come on, smoke is smoke. Cigarettes are addictive but pot is straight smoke, no filters involved. Is one worse than the other? What makes me the most angry is that cities are actually banning smoking in privately owned restaurants. And the worst is airports. You either go outside or they stick you in a cancer room. I understand they have to have tight security, but maybe some vents might work better than a closet. I'm also not closed-minded to the idea of quitting. But it has to be because I want to, not because people a shaming me into it. And I'm not gonna come into your home and smoke cigarettes on all your clothes and furniture. I smoke in my house, in my car, or outside. Am I really inconveniencing you? WHOO, I feel better. |
shaggymaggie wrote: WHOO, I feel better. Just makes me sad.
Lung cancer is such a long, slow painful way to go both for you and your caregivers |
| Wait, sorry, I'm not done. Banning smoke in bars! Drinking and smoking are like pees and carrots! In Lawrence Kansas you can't smoke anywhere. If you wanna smoke anywhere bars are the place to do it.
Cigarettes are becoming less and less socially acceptable. Everyone has a vice, and I'm sick of people with obvious vices calling me on my smoking. Like smoking pot...you get something from that, and I get something from this. People smoke pot in their houses and cars, but not cigarettes. At least I'm not gonna get arrested when I get pulled over. Alcohol is a drug, coffee is a drug, nicotine is a drug, and so on. We all have our vices, but there's a degree of social acceptance and legality. And what I'm concerned with is the social acceptance part. Most of the aspects of my life are healthy. I eat right, I drink a lot of water and milk, a was walking every day (until my sprain), I take my medicine, I see my doctor. But then I light up a cigarette and none of that matters to other people. I'm addicted to cigarettes, but it is not an addiction that impairs my ability to function. And having addictions does not make a person bad. So bottom line, if I'm not hurting you, then keep it to yourself. Don't even acknowledge it. And if worse comes to worse, put your shirt over your mouth. Ok, I'm not completely serious to all you non-smokers that don't like being around it. I'm just ranting, that's all. I respect other people's boundaries. |
| It is bad for you, but I justify it because I'm young, and I figure I have my whole life to quit. Why not get all this out of my system while I'm still young. |
| Who can tell me what "Puppy Cut Needs Brushing"? I guess it depends on the number of posts, but I want to get a really high status. I want to be Best in Show or something. So how many posts do I need to get a new status? |
| To all the smokers: Don't you realize it's bad for your health? That your pounding nails in your coffin and shortening your life? Making yourselves ugly, etc.........? If you'd quit, you wouldn't have people telling you that stuff.
But, if you pass by my house and see smoke coming from the roof, it's coming from me. My chimney doesn't smoke. While doing repair work on the roof I found a sign next to the chimney that said, "Caution, smoking may be harmful to your health". 
I hate non smokers thinking they need the whole building. I didn't mind sharing so they could have a non-smoking room. Does that mean non-smokers are stingy? I hate not having all my OES any more and wanting a puppy and not being able to have one. I hate standing in line somewhere and having the cashier say "Next", and then wait on the person "behind" you. I LOVE the Lord. I LOVE my husband and am thankful he's alive and doing better. I LOVE our son, our daughter-in-law and our three grandsons. I LOVE my old 14 1/2 yr old sheepie and hate the thought of loosing her. I love these forums, the people behind the sheepie faces. The advice, kindness, etc.......it's great. What would we do if Ron pulled the plug on us? Is there a Ron Clinic for OES forum addicts?  |
| But it's the years at the end...
No more smoking discussion please. Maybe some thing more enlightening like nuclear war or crack babies? |
| Ok, yeah, I'm sorry. I just needed a moment to vent. It's not like there's a line between smokers and non-smoker; but it's like venting when your parents do something...you still love them, but you just need to get your thoughts out.
Mouthypf, I'm happy your husband is well, even though I don't know what was wrong. I'm just happy to hear that you're happy. I'll tell you guys what I'm happy about (I should really work on the positive thing): I'm happy that I have such great parents. They are always supportive, even when I stray from the norm. I'm happy that even though I have few friends, the ones I have are good ones. I'm happy that I have a roof over my head and shoes on my feet. Many people are not so fortunate. I'm happy that I have pets. They make me appreciate simple things like good chewbies and how there are so many things to be happy about. I'm happy I have a cat. She makes me feel so needed because she absolutely adores me. I'm happy I volunteer for the shelter, because I'm using my energy to help a good cause. I'm happy I've found a forum that appreciates me talking about dogs. I do it anyway, but it's probably better for people who have my love of sheepies. I'm happy that my parents are willing to pay for my education. I'm happy that I woke up this morning. I'm happy that I'm relatively healthy. I'm happy that I'm eating better (even though I couldn't help but eat pizza tonight; that doesn't count). I'm happy when I read books. I'm happy when I lay out by the pool. I'm happy that there are people out there that can deal with my neuroses. I'm happy for bagels. They're just so damn good. I'm happy for cars, because I'm too lazy to walk where I want to go. I'm happy that I don't drive all that much, because it's good for the environment. I'm happy that my best girl friend has been there for my for the past 8 years. She's great, and she's basically me with blond hair. I hope I brightened the forum for a minute, and if I did, I'm happy. I'm happy that you guys respond to my posts. I love that. |
mouthypf wrote: I can only say that my belief is that you must believe in Jesus and ask forgiveness for your sins to enter the Kingdom of Heaven. He is just to forgive, and will do so, but you have to ask. Just my personal beliefs and feelings. I love the Lord and you gave me an opportunity to speak of His offer of salvation. No offense meant! Back to religion...I am envious of people with concrete beliefs. My beliefs tend to change based on my emotions. I would love to find religion if I could be consistent. But I also notice how some people breed hate through religious beliefs. I respect your post because you acknowledged the fact that some people have beliefs simply because they have been engrained. Here in the US we are generally biased against Muslims because we have seen violent repurcussions, but, for instance, the attackers of 9/11 really believed they were right. I do struggle with "religion" because the term describes anyone from reform to extreme. I want to feel like my beliefs are right. So for the moment I have my own set of values. And in general my values are based on what my parents have taught me and how my actions affect other people. I don't steal, I don't yell at people, I don't curse when I'm in an arguement, I smoke, I don't drink and drive, I say thank you, I tell people that I appreciate them, I give money and food and clothing to charities, I volunteer, I treat everyone with the respect they deserve (despite what I WANT to say or do). These are my values, and they are pretty general, but in my mind they're sound. I believe in what I experience. Maybe that science, maybe that's skepticism. If I'm walking and I kick a rock, I know that the rock is real because I experienced it. I guess that's existentialism, but I'm more of a gal who believes what she experiences. And as of yet, I haven't had an experience with "God," whatever that may be. And I do believe that "God" means something different to everyone. For instance, Mouthypf, you believe in Jesus, and yet I was raised to believe in Adonai. And then there are the Messianic Jews. They are Jews that believe in Jesus, which is exactly what Judaism DOES NOT stand for. And I think it may take time to find some Ultimate Observer. But for now, I have to believe in myself and then I can go from there. My lack of concrete beliefs are not necessarily rejection; rather, it's a matter of finding myself, and then finding a belief that suits my needs. Maybe it's like finding a dog; you want one that you can honor and give everything to. You don't want to neglect your dog. So, and please don't take this as an accusation Mouthypf, I hate when someone's words imply that they want to save me, because I'm not cut off to the idea of finding a concrete belief that gets me up every Sunday morning. I have a concept of good and bad, and I don't want to subscribe to a church or temple that sets my beliefs out for me, rather than a church or temple than guides me. I'm more of a positive reinforcement kind of girl, and I tend to resist when someone or something that gives me rules. But I am not against organized religion. I think it gives people a reason to get through the day, and in that regard, I am envious that I'm unable to have that at the moment. I think it gives people wonderful gifts, but right now that's just not for me. So, and I'm sure this is not what you're trying to say to me, I don't want to be perceived as a person that needs guidance. As my life and my maturity develop, so do my beliefs and values. And maybe one day I will find a religion and maybe one day I won't. And maybe I'll be searching for my entire life. But I am searching. And I refuse to become a person that I've never wanted to be. I know this is a sensitive issue, just like the smoking, but I also don't feel like we're on opposing sides. I respect your beliefs, I'm either envious, and I want to please, but at the moment, I am incapable of being the person that I'm afraid people want me to be. But I do find this topic quite intriguing and informative. |
| Also, the Magic Bullit infomercial is on, and I'm totally tempted to call. I'm such a sucker. Oh man, I want a blender to make guacamole in 3 seconds, but I can't do it. Don't do it, Jules, don't do it.
I'm trying but it's so hard. I need to go to bed. |
| I just reached 100th post!!!!!!
Let's have a party! I want guacamole, pizza, rice pudding, cheesecake, and lots of dogs! WOOHOO! I guess this post will make it 101, but I want a party with guacamole! You guys have been great, and I'm totally enjoying my addiction to this site. (This is my acceptance speech ). So either way, I'm eventually eating guacamole, but maybe we could schedule it, like a party that occurs in different states! We could all enjoy guac at 10PM Wichita time, and then it would be like a party, but I definately expect some kind of joy to occur!!!!!! Maybe you can just do your own thing, but I expect to hear about it.
WOOHOO! I have 100 posts!!! |
| I'm still excited, and I'm still going to eat avacado at least. Maggie's chewing her squeaky ball. She's also excited.
Ok, I really need to sleep, and I probably need to get a life! But this is too much fun! |
| Just so you know, I ate the avacado, and it really wasn't so great. Maybe if you guys joined me! Oh gosh, I should go to sleep! |
Quote: But for now, I have to believe in myself and then I can go from there. My lack of concrete beliefs are not necessarily rejection; rather, it's a matter of finding myself, and then finding a belief that suits my needs.
I have a concept of good and bad, and I don't want to subscribe to a church or temple that sets my beliefs out for me, rather than a church or temple than guides me. ... but right now that's just not for me. You sound very much like me at your age. What turned me off was a visit to a relative's church for Christmas and instead of an uplifting sermon we got a rant and rave against all other religions except theirs. That was 28 years ago! LOL! I really held a grudge against God and religions. Slowly I began showing interest again.......but turned away from the "only we are correct and the rest will go to Hell" teachings. How fortunate I am where I am now (yes, I believe there was some "other" help) where the emphasis is on improving your self and your work towards others. Beware of developing "your own" values. Many great ills of the world were brought on by people who developed their own values and thought they were right or justified their "rightness." (I know that's not a word). This occurs both outside a religion, any religion.... and within. (nothing like watching Buddist monks slaughter one another in the name of peace) One problem I had was the ability to "believe." In the words of two great profits (Indiana Jones "Holy Grail" movie and Dr. Laura ) the first step is faith. If you can cross the invisible line then the rest comes easier, not easy, but easier. You have to be willing to give yourself up to something greater than you.......not live just for yourself.
I wish you a interesting journey. And.....how I envy you eating a whole pizza and a tub of ice cream.........in my wildest dreams. But now my body would fall to the floor quivering in a mass if so much fat, sugar and carbos were to hit it at once. |
[quote]  How do you do that quote thing???I am computer stupid...
I just wanted to laugh at sheepieboss..Your quivering mass of flesh etc...that made me really smile
ButtersStoch; having an identical twin has its advantages...I only took science tests, lisa only to math tests I now suck at math..go figure..switch dates and the best of all....DOUBLE THE SHOE AND CLOTHES WARDROBE!!!! |
SheepieBoss wrote: One problem I had was the ability to "believe." In the words of two great profits (Indiana Jones "Holy Grail" movie and Dr. Laura
) the first step is faith. If you can cross the invisible line then the rest comes easier, not easy, but easier. You have to be willing to give yourself up to something greater than you.......not live just for yourself. I consider myself spiritual, but not necessarily "religious" as I don't believe in all of the dogma of the religion I was raised in. But when I look at Jil's beautiful roses, or watch our dogs play in the park, or look at the ocean and all of the spectacular creatures that live in it, or have a great moment with friends and family, I can't help but believe that there is a Creator who loves us very much to provide us with such beauty. And I'm grateful to God for all of that beauty and all the opportunities that I've had. That's the foundation of my faith. The rest I go with if it makes sense to me. The 10 Commandments all make sense to me. Love thy neighbor as thyself? I try to follow that one too. Don't eat meat on Fridays in Lent? I don't think God will love me less for eating a hamburger. Sue |
| Wow, Sue, your post really resounds with me. You put that very well. I can really relate to that.
I appreciate everyone's personal stories. They make me think. Thanks. |
| Amen Sue!! I agree with you 100%!!! Especially, after last nite watching the slobber pups go at it!! |
Anonymous wrote: shaggymaggie wrote: WHOO, I feel better. Just makes me sad. Lung cancer is such a long, slow painful way to go both for you and your caregivers Since cancer is genetic, if I'm going to get it, I'm going to get it. No member in my family has gotten cancer for as far back as we can know... and my great grandfather smoked 3 packs a day and lived healthy and happy til he was 96 and died in his sleep. Most people do not like hearing that cancer is genetic, or all the genetic background... so I won't go into it. I still hope my kids don't smoke, because although I do smoke, I think for one, it is a huge waste of money, it makes the house, clothes, and furniture smell bad, and it really is not good for anyone to be putting all the poisons in your body that are contained in a cigarrette. I know, teach by example... ah well, I've made other mistakes, we all do. |
Willowsprite wrote: Since cancer is genetic, if I'm going to get it, I'm going to get it. No member in my family has gotten cancer for as far back as we can know... and my great grandfather smoked 3 packs a day and lived healthy and happy til he was 96 and died in his sleep.
Most people do not like hearing that cancer is genetic, or all the genetic background... so I won't go into it. Hi Willowsprite, Saying that just flies in the face of ALL the data that's corrected for every possible factor, especially since the pool of victims is so huge. Smoking increases your chance of lung cancer. If you don't smoke, your risk of getting it is smaller than if you do smoke. If you do smoke, your chances of getting lung cancer are greater than if you do not smoke, and the more that you smoke, the higher your chances of developing lung cancer. If you do smoke and you quit smoking, your chances of getting cancer begin to reduce nearly immediately, and are almost those of a non-smoker after 10 years of abstinence. Unless we're being lied to. Surely genetics play a role in cancer, however just because genetics play a role does not also mean that smoking does not. I am a former smoker. I enjoyed smoking, but did the hard thing and quit based on the fact that I couldn't breathe, I had a nasty cough that never went away and I wanted to reduce my risk of other problems. I respect your right to smoke and to do whatever it is that you want to do to and with your body. |
| Hi Darcy,
LOL ahhh sorry to chuckle at your expense but I can relate with you. I still haven't mastered posting my own pics, can't even use the cut and paste on my computer as it crashes every time...grumble..grumble. People look at my ancient computer and shake their heads and wonder why I haven't bought myself a better one. I point the finger of blame at the critters in the household...got my priorities right!! On another note he's a bit of trivia about myself that I find mind boggling: My brother, my son, Merlin and my boyfriend were all born on Aug 26th!! Isn't that a coincidence!! Marianne |
Darcy wrote: I must really be stupid...I can not figure this out...can someone please go step by step for this challenged person
Okay... 1. Click on the "quote" button in the frame of the post that you want to quote from. 2. A new window will open which allows you to post your message. 3. Type your info below the quote as you normally would. 4. If you only want to quote a portion of the paragraph, begin to erase AFTER the brackets and stop erasing (deleting) BEFORE the last brackets where you see /quote. Hope this helps? |
Ron wrote: Willowsprite wrote: Since cancer is genetic, if I'm going to get it, I'm going to get it. No member in my family has gotten cancer for as far back as we can know... and my great grandfather smoked 3 packs a day and lived healthy and happy til he was 96 and died in his sleep. Most people do not like hearing that cancer is genetic, or all the genetic background... so I won't go into it. Hi Willowsprite, Saying that just flies in the face of ALL the data that's corrected for every possible factor, especially since the pool of victims is so huge. Smoking increases your chance of lung cancer. If you don't smoke, your risk of getting it is smaller than if you do smoke. If you do smoke, your chances of getting lung cancer are greater than if you do not smoke, and the more that you smoke, the higher your chances of developing lung cancer. If you do smoke and you quit smoking, your chances of getting cancer begin to reduce nearly immediately, and are almost those of a non-smoker after 10 years of abstinence. Unless we're being lied to. Surely genetics play a role in cancer, however just because genetics play a role does not also mean that smoking does not. I am a former smoker. I enjoyed smoking, but did the hard thing and quit based on the fact that I couldn't breathe, I had a nasty cough that never went away and I wanted to reduce my risk of other problems. I respect your right to smoke and to do whatever it is that you want to do to and with your body. I agree... it's not healthy, and it will increase my chances of getting whatever.... and no, it is not strictly genetics, but genetics does play a large role. There are tons of other factors that contribute, however, for example, if a person carries two valid copies of the gene that suppresses tumors, that person will NOT get a tumor. There are some genes that suppress cancer, some that cause it, or at least leave a person, or any mammal, predisposed to it. |
| why cant i get quotes to show up in the little white box...I need a smoke....forget it, im just not going to quote anyone ....can anyone say "Darcy's challenged"???!!! |
| You have the box labelled "Disable BBCode" checked in all of your posts.
Go to your profile and click on "yes" next to "Always allow bbcode" then click on submit. I'll go back and delete most of the excess posts, leaving one... |
| We talk about lung cancer, but emphysema is a far more likely result. My aunt can barely breath and she curses her years spent smoking, "I damn every cigarette I ever smoked, but I sure did enjoy them. Look at me now, I can't walk 6 feet without gasping for breath."
My husband's brother in law is the same way. My brother's mother-in-law walks around tethered to an oxygen tube........and has for 7 years. My boss died from it after a 5 year battle and watching his own brother die from it 10 years before. So enjoy those cigaretts now because the end result is hell. |
| I applaud the decisions in city's/towns to make businesses like resteraunts smoke free. I am so happy to see all the negative things mentioned to discourage people/kids from smoking...no longer cool to do it.
I fortunately came from a non-smoking family, my class in school vowed to be smoke-free, I graduated in 1990...not one of us took up smoking. Now when we go somehwere hotel, other vehicles etc that were used by a smoker...it wreaks so bad. When my brother in law comes over, he smells so strong of smoke it permeates the house and I hate it. We love him to death, he is actually my favorite of my husbands siblings, but because he smokes we don't visit him. It is hard for my kids to breathe just being in his apt...it is in everything. When he comes I appreciate that he smokes outside, and that definitely helps. People will do what they want to do, and have the right to do what they wish to their bodies but I am glad the tables are finally turned and the non smokers finally can have a break. The places that still think separating half the room will finally realizes what a joke that is. I do agree that bars and pubs should allow smoking...or at the very least have a walled partioned floor to ceiling made of glass so it doesn't need to overwhelm the entire area. I do not got to these places so it doesn't bother me. |
| You non smokers are all right! I quit for 11 yrs, and started again when my stepdaughter started acting up....I knew if I picked up another cigerette, I would start smoking again....I did Trying to quit the second time around is soo much harder..every day I think about quitting and that I hate smoking...I liked myself so much better as a nonsmoker...sigh..BUT...I do NOT smoke in my house, at other peoples houses, in my car or if someone asks me not to..I do understand both sides of the coin...smoking tastes like #@&%$....smoking is a great stress release....see 2 sides, no solution.................. |
| I step up on to the soap box.
Darcy, You are so pretty and I would hate to see your skin age early due to smoking. Smoking chokes off the smallest of the blood vessels, like the ones that bring oxygen to your skin to keep it young and smooth. I smoked for 18 years and quit cold turkey about 15 years ago. I'm 50 now and I see the damage that smoking did to my skin and to my lungs. The feeling that it gives you is not worth the damage. So do what you can to quit and do it soon, pills, gum or what ever you can do. I let vanity be my motive for quiting and I can only hope that other young women use vanity as a motive too. It causes fine, crepy wrinkles on your cheeks. Believe me you can live with a little crows feet, and with botox, that can be put off for a few years too. But the crepy stuff that happens to the skin on your cheeks is not reversable and it is not attractive and if you sun bathe it will only be worse. Let vanity be your motive.... I now step off of my soap box! Thanks for listening. |
| Thanks Tylers mom. I know.
Darcy |
Willowsprite wrote: Since cancer is genetic, if I'm going to get it, I'm going to get it.
Some cancers seem more genetic than others. My maternal grandmother, maternal aunt and mother have all had breast cancer. So the question for me and my female cousin isn't "if", it's "when". The good news is that treatment has progressed so far since my grandmother's days. Both Mom and Aunt caught it early, had chemo and radiation, and are doing fine.  The bad news for me is that one of the contributing factors for breast cancer is being overweight, which I am. And believe me, it's just as hard for me to give up my Snickers bars as it is for the smokers to give up their nicotine So I empathize with the struggle!
Sue |
| Vanity was my only motive for quitting. I was always comfortable knowing what cancer I could expect. Now I don't know where it'll pop up. |
| Sorry to change the topic, but I had a great night.
I went to the Wichita Dog Trainer's Club to apply for membership. Most people just send the application in, but my trainer told me it would be good to be there in person. It's pretty far away, and I got totally lost, dirt roads and all. And I actually drove by it twice and didn't notice. And I was really nervous about going and I was lost, and I almost turned around and went home. So I finally found it, and I guess every Tuesday the members bring their dogs and work with them before the meeting. So I worked with Maggie for maybe 30 minutes and she was doing really well. And then during the meeting I had Maggie on a down/stay. She was down for an hour and a half and she only broke the command twice. I'm so proud of her, we came home and I made her a turkey sandwich. I was kind of upset for awhile there because of the sprain (she was pulling on the leash when I fell), and then she wasn't very good at the Doodle Romp, but she was so great tonight. I'm feeling a lot better about our training. |
| Smoking and Cancer:
My dad died at the age of 36 as a result of lung/bone cancer. He was a smoker. His mom died in her late 70's of a rare form of quick spreading neck/throat cancer. She too was a smoker, but her cancer had nothing to do with her smoking. Her dad died in a house fire in his 90's. He chewed tobacco. My youngest brother, a non -smoker lost a kidney due to kidney cancer in his 20's. My sister, also a non-smoker lost her female parts in her early 30's due to cancer. My other brother and I both smoke. No known cancers, although he does have emphysema. My husband has a severe, inoperable form of emphysema. He's not smoked for at least 15 years or better. So, the lungs being like you never smoked after so many years had no effect on him. When I sold my puppies people would ask me what diseases dogs are succeptable to. The answer I gave is that they get pretty much the same things people do, plus a few of their own diseases. Dogs get cancer, do they smoke? Of course not. I know, blame it on the second hand smoke, but are you positive that the smoke in the restaraunt is what's making people sick, or is it the asbestes in the walls? I know the smoke stinks and the other doesn't. But, its still a killer. Smokers are tired of non-smokers complaining. They're winning the battle of making public buildings off limits for smoking, but are they happy? NO!!! That's not good enough, they got us out of the building and now they want us off the grounds!!! If I go somewhere and things are going on that I disapprove of, I move down or leave. I don't lobby and force my will on others. The most important thing of all that is being overlooked by everyone is the fact that we, as United States citizens, use to have freedom of choice. Its my choice to smoke, if it bothers you and I was there first, then leave or vice versa. We're adults, do we want or need our government taking away our freedom? They're suppose to be protecting it!!! They have more important things to concentrate on, such as jobs in America, the price of gas, etc........... We should be able to handle the trivial things ourselves. Just my own opinion (something no one can take from me, although they may make it a law that I can't express it) |
| Maggie graduated from Advanced Obedience tonight !
Tomorrow I start basic obedience with the Doodle. We'll see how that goes... I'm thinking about putting Maggie in an agility class just for fun. I try to be careful because she broke her back left leg two times when she was a puppy, but I've seen her playing with the dogs and she's running around and jumping over stuff. I've also gotten her to play on the equipment at the pup park. I want to be careful, but I also don't want to baby her, because I think she takes advantage of the break in front of me so she won't have to do certain things on her own (like getting in the car) out of laziness. Just an update. |
| Ok, I think I need to vent for a little while.
My sister and I have never been the best of friends, but we both try to get along. A couple days ago, my sister's roommate got a puppy. I've been puppysitting both the puppy, and my sister's dog. Well, normally, it's puppysitting until 5 or 6 PM, and around 6:30 PM I called my sister to ask where she was, and she told me she wouldn't be back until around 10:30 PM. Well, it's 12:51AM and I'm still waiting for her. I left her a message and she still hasn't gotten back to me. What annoys me the most about this is that I'm supposed to train the puppy (his name's Riley), so in my opinion, his first task is to get house-trained. I'm working on crate-training him during the day for short periods of time, and slowly increasing the time, so that eventually, he'll be so used to the crate that he can stay in it through the night, but apparently my sister has convinced her roommate that it's "cruel" or "inhumane" or something. Basically, what it comes down to is really just a sister-sister fight. But I'm so annoyed because my sister knows that I've been doing so much research and reading, and I'm really trying to be informed when it comes to dogs, and yet she's still arguing with me. I feel like she's being proud and she's unwilling to listen to her younger sister. But either way, she was supposed to pick up Riley at 5 or 6, and then 10:30, and then I don't know when. And I feel like if she and her roommate are going to leave their new puppy with me for so long, then they should at least try to stay consistent with what I'm doing (crate-training) and not be so disrespectful. Because she said 10:30, and by 11:00, I just couldn't leave the puppy by himself. Like I said, this is an issue with my sister and I, and it's been going on for a long time, but for the last month it's been bothering and hurting me, and tonight was the boiling point. And when I say "boiling point" I actually mean the point that it bothered me so much that I had to post it on the internet. Well, it's now 1 o'clock in the morning...I haven't heard from her, and I'm a little worried because I've been calling her, and I really would rather not wake anyone to say, "I'm annoyed with my sister." Ok, I am annoyed with my sister, but we're sisters...this is what we do. Thanks for listening...or reading, I guess. -Jules |
| OK, 1:29 AM...she and her roommate just came. I waited outside for maybe 15 minutes. I didn't want them to wake our parents, so I thought this would be better.
And although I know that this is a sister-sister thing, I just wish we could be better sisters than this. In general, I always feel like the "younger, annoying sister" and when I finally serve some use, I'm thrilled to make my older sister happy. But lately I've gotten to the point where I feel like I can't make my sister happy without sacrificing my own feelings, and as humble and noble and sisterly as I want to be, I just can't always do that...I'm also proud and I want to be right, even though I'm the younger sister and I'm "not supposed to be like that." I know this sounds petty and trivial in the long run, but this is a pattern, despite how much I think I've matured...maybe it's always going to bother me. Maybe this is something I'm going to be lying on a couch, talking to my therapist about in 30 years. "My sister made me babysit her roommate's puppy." I do realize that this is a petty issue, but the reason I'm upset is because I feel like it's been a pattern throughout my entire childhood. I thought I was an adult now and I could get past all these trivial arguements...but maybe I can't. And I'm upset, and I don't know how to express my feelings without reverting back to my 6-year-old mindset. Ok, my 6-year-old mindset says that I'm sad, and I feel hurt, and that I wish that I had a sister that was openly concerned about my well-being, just as I am concerned about hers. My 6-year-old mindset wishes that I could have been there while she was putting on her makeup for her first prom, and that I could have been inside her mind during the night that she was nominated and then electade prom queen. I'm sorry, everyone, but despite how hard I try, it's the people that I'm closest to that can hurt me the most. |
| HI,
You know every adult that ever stays for a period of time with their parent says the same thing - they revert back to their childhood. Hang in there, and although you're right we often say things to family members that we would never say to strangers. It doesn't mean they don't love us as in times of true crisis there are there for us. My sister and I still argue and I find myself doing things I did and acting like a kid again in our arguements. Arg!!! I remember as a kid she would beat up anyone that ever harmed her little sister (me) but would think nothing of thumping me on the head...LOL It's the same sorta thing in adulthood, she'll say something to me that no stranger would ever have the nerve to say and yet despite it all, she'd come over in a heartbeat should I ever need anything. You'll always be the little sister - no matter how old you are, just like you'll always be your mama's baby. Your sis loves you, there's no doubt about it. Marianne |
| Hi,
Ok, I've tried to put myself in your place...and the difference between our sisters is that I truly don't believe my sister would actually stick up for me. I know this just sounds like bitterness, but from experience, I know that this has nothing to do with "sisterly instinct." I really do appreciate your feedback, but unfortunately, even if my sister really does love me, she refuses to put herself in the position to defend me. Like I said, we don't have that kind of relationship. It's more about each of us defending ourselves. But it really does help to hear these responses. It makes me feel like I'm not alone. |
| Fun thread - I've enjoyed reading about everyone
1. I love where we live. It's a tiny community (less than 1000 people), very quiet and peaceful. However, we have to drive 30 minutes one way to get gas, go to the grocery store, go to doctors/hopsitals, etc. If we want to do any shopping at a mall, we have to drive about 2 hours or do it online. At least the kids' soon to be school is right next door to us! 2. I've never lived more than a hour away from where I was born, and the longest time I've been away from the area is only one week at a time. 3. I majored in Geosciences with an emphasis in Broadcast Meteorology. I took so many communication classes that I decided to get a double major and go for a communications major also. Then, I changed it to Operational Meteorology (National Weather Service, airports, off camera). I had seriously considered joining the Air Force before kids, so I was also involved in AFROTC. Through that, I was able to take a few extra courses and also get a minor in aerospace engineering. LOL I have no use for it, but it makes me sound smart, huh?
4. I started working at 15 as a pet groomer, had that job until I was 20. I did want to become a vet, but that job made me change my mind. I decided to become a meteorologist, because that's my second love! 5. Now since I've had two sons in NICU for lung problems and have lost a daughter to SIDS, I've become interested in respiratory therapy. I'm only 25, so I'm seriously considering going back to school for this. 6. My husband says I'm just going to be a lifetime student!
7. I got married at 19, and had 3 children by the time I was 23! We planned them all, and I had a baby in 2000, 2001, and 2002. I was pregnant with #4 in late 2004/early 2005, but we lost that baby due to a miscarriage. 8. My ob/gyn scheduled my c-section too early with my youngest son, and we almost lost him several times. He spent 2 weeks in NICU, on a vent. for 1 week of that breathing 100% for him. His lungs weren't developed at all at birth, and he couldn't breathe. He was given steroid shots, which thank the Good Lord, helped them develop! Then, he had jaundice, sepsis on top of a staph infection, RDS, and a bunch of other smaller things. He was on vancomycin and gentamycin, which caused him to go into renal (kidney) failure Christmas day. He's now a healthy, active, spoiled 2 year old boy - who is over 3 feet tall and weighs 40 pounds! You'd never know he was born 5 weeks premature & was doing so poorly at birth to see him today, he's also advanced for a 2.5 year old in everything. He's my little miracle baby. 9. I've never smoked a cigarette, have never even seen an illegal drug, and I've drank very little in my life. 10. I can only have c-sections because my pelvic bones are too tiny. I don't mind though. I labored with my first, and I prefer c-sections! 11. I want a large family, but due to my c-sections, our next baby will be our last. We are thinking about adoption or fostering in the future. 12. Umm..since cancer is a topic, I've been blessed enough never to of had anyone in my family die from cancer (not in 3 generations anyway). 13. My husband is trying to get a job in Shreveport (the place he considers home). If this happens, it'll be a drastic change to me since I've always lived in rural areas. 14. I wasn't sure I wanted to be a mother, but now, I can't imagine my life without my kiddos. 15. My husband wasn't supposed to be able to have children due to a childhood injury - guess we proved the doctors wrong.
16. I'm a packrat and keep everything! However, I'm not the most organzied so I always lose most things in boxes! 17. My favorite color is blue. 18. My eyes are green. My hair is brown. Both of my boys have blonde hair & blue eyes (they're 50% Norwegian though). 19. Weird little tidbit. I have O+ blood, my husband has A+ blood. Both of our boys managed to get O- blood! My MIL works in a blood bank, so I'm sure she'll take advantage of that when they get old enough to donate...lol 19. A ferret caused me to meet my husband.
20. My husband and I only knew each other for 6 months before we got married. We'll celebrate our 7th anniversary in January! 21. I really get along well with my family and with my husband's family. Right now, my brother and I have a strained relationship, and I'm not sure what caused it. We see each other all the time, but we usually end up fighting or avoiding one another. We used to be best friends! 22. We had been looking at OES & considering them for a while, but Jasper was more or less an impulse buy after my miscarriage. We hadn't planned on actually getting one for another year. My husband knew I needed something to take care of, and although it was still painful, Jasper helped a lot! I can't imagine our family without him now! 23. In college, I took a full load (21 hours), worked two jobs, and I had all the marriage responsibilites. I started college the summer I graduated high school and went every term - summers included. Even with as busy as I was, being a stay at home mom is MUCH harder (although I wouldn't give it up for the world)! 24. I grew up with religion and in church. I'm still very involved with both. 25. I changed from Baptist to Church of Christ when I met my husband. I went to church with him once, and I knew that was the church for me. 7 years later, I have no regrets, and I still love it as much as the first time I walked in. 26. If you can't tell, I've lived a very sheltered life. |
| Ok, here's some more about me:
I'm so envious of people who have passions. I want to have that kind of passion, but it's hard because I don't have that kind of motivation. I got paid $40 for puppy-sitting my sister's dog. I don't think I should have gotten paid (I would have done it anyway), but hey, it's an extra $40! I'm scared of mold. I don't know why. I'm scared of earthquakes. I also don't know why. I'm scared to ever get married. I've never loved myself enough to completely love someone else, so I think that's my first priority. I take medications. I have a lot of trouble sleeping, among other things, so that's why I'm awake at 3:45 AM. I have been dealing with depression for the last 6 years. It's hard, because I feel like I've been treating many of the side-effects of my medications, but I'm determined to persevire. It really is hard because I feel like I have been battling the symptoms rather than the cause. I really try to help myself, but sometimes it's hard not to indulge myself. I appreciate raw honesty. Maybe because I tend to censor my emotions. I have really bad typing skills. My best friend lives in another country. I feel guilty when I am honest on this forum because I just want to convey positive emotions. I really want you guys to see me as sunny, happy, and bright. |
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